Moving On...

October... ...Can you believe it's OCTOBER already? Almost over really. In a week, It's will be NOVEMBER! How did ths year go by so fast? This time last year I was just getting home from Ohio ready to move on with my life. Sadly, I've made little improvement.
Well, to be fair, I am now in college and have better knowledge on what I want from my life (not to mention; I went to JAPAN!): But really, if I think about it, I'm still where I was last year. Ready to move on, but not quite there yet.
Josh and I (the old one) went off and on this year about continuing a life together. As it is, I've decided once and for all that we leading seperate life and it's best to let go. Unlike last year, however, when thought I believed that and said it, there was this pain in the pit of my stomach wondering if that was really that right choice. I don't have that feeling anymore. Now that ache in my tummy is hunger.(I have yet to eat lunch. lol)
As far as school goes, I still have over a year to complete it. My other school turned into total disaster and I was forced to find a more structered school. As it turns out, this one actually counts as college, but it takes longer to complete as it is only 3 days a week instead of 5. That helps though. I know can work part time and not strain my self.
I still have plans to move out of my parents house. Now that they are retired, they want to move out of state by next summer and have agreed t help me with half my rent so I can get settled living on my own with out having to rely on roomates that could not turn out so well. They want peace of mind that I'll be okay on my own in FL, while I'm waiting to graduate and hopefully (if I'm not content in sarasota) move up north with them when I'm done.
I managed to keep Riley. I fought long and hard and now have my brother and sister watching him until I move out of the parents house (I'm looking around Jan. or Feb. of 2011) He's been movng around so much I wonder if he's happy. I was going to give him up, but It never worked out. even after I put up posts on craigslist. I even had an interview for a family but the had a crisis that day, and it never worked out. I can't wait to just get settled and have him in a placce that he'll love.
I guess I'm just frustrated that it's been a year and all I have to show for it is... ...more plans! Though tangable and carfully thought through, it still just crazy how I haven't done anything more with my life thus far. I did go to JAPAN in December and travel to Illinois a bit through out summer. But then what? Nothing. Enroll in college, bust. Enroll in another college, working on it. Move into house with roommates, HUGH bust. No boyfriends that made the cut. No ligit dates this year. I mean c'mon. Am I selling myself short? Or am I just dwelling and feeling sorry for myself? Irregardless, I am moving on.

I'm sitting in the mall and Lookng around, it looks like everyne is either married with kids, kids on the way, or engaged. People my age! Is everyone in a happy loving relationship? It that why I can't seem to find someone worth my time. nw don't me wrong, there are tons of great guys that woud be excellent boyfriends, but It sems that only one I'm atrrated to or taken or wouldn't look good to my parents.

Besides that, I am generally happy. I went on a date the other night and he was nice, but nothing ever clicked. I haven't really felt that since Trooper and before that it was Marine, and before that it was o.j.; so I'm thinking it bound to happen soon, but until then I'm just biding time. I
I want to get involved in a church or doing community service or something worth while. Like give manicures to people in assisted living homes. I think that would be pretty cool.

I gues I'll continue making plans ad by this time next year, hopefully I'll have more accomplished; and when I really think about it, who really has everything they plan done anyway? Not many I assume.

Till later,
Me xo